Over the years, there has most definitely been a lot of difficulty and hardships in mine and my family’s life, we have had to endure some really hard times.

There have been moments where it felt as if we just couldn’t continue on anymore, where we have been hurt so brutally and scared so badly that all we wished is to move away and start somewhere new, and who knows. Perhaps we might still do that, not saying that is what I want at the moment the only thing that I want anymore is the will of God for my life and that is what my Family has always wanted, we have always made sure to the best of our own ability that God was in our decisions so that we wouldn’t mess up.

However there are certainly times when we messed up, there are events in our life that we cannot go back and change, however I don’t know anymore, did we really mess up? Or were we and have we really been in God’s will all along, you see I constantly say that you can’t live and have regrets, IF you prayed for God’s will, because if you are 100% certain that it was his desire for you and also IF you are 100% certain that what you did was good, then why would you regret something like that?

We can’t go back in the past with a time machine, it is too unrealistic, so I believe it is important that we realize one thing and we must realize it right now in our life or else we live with guilt, shame, depression and regret and that isn’t how anyone should live. I don’t believe in saying that I should not have done it or I should not have done this, because by living like that then I am saying that by being kind, by doing what God would have had me to do and by being in his perfect will I was wrong.

He Knows ALL:

If I’ve said it once I have said it a million times, God is the all-knowing all-powerful wonderful and magnificent creator of all things, of all this world and of all creation. He is not the author of confusion and he would not lead us down a path that we should ever regret, there may be times where we might should of done things a little bit differently, but when we are letting God lead us then we can not expect that things won’t go wrong every now and then, we shouldn’t expect to say ‘God lead me’ and everything turn out all fine and dandy, that’s not how it works.

Reminds me of that commercial about car insurance where the two old ladies are talking to each other and the other one is standing in the middle and the woman is hanging pictures on her wall while one lady on the couch says I like that one and then the elderly woman in the middle says something like that isn’t how it works’ then the woman turns and says “I unfriend you” and the lady just stands there shaking her head saying that’s not how it works that is not how any of this works.

It isn’t how it works, it works God’s way and we have to be willing to trust that he will lead us through all of the bad times just as he brought us to the good times because if we don’t then we for sure don’t have a chance making it on our own, every decision we make can alter our life dramatically and we don’t even pay that much attention to it, however if we are allowing God to lead and guide us then we might just make it out of this life alive, wait a second we actually will make it out of this life alive, because Christ came to bring LIFE.

In Conclusion:

My dear friends, we must continue moving forward for the betterment of God’s Kingdom, we can not allow ourselves to be trampled and run over with the hurt and the pain of regret, we may have pain and we may be hurt from all the bad that has happened in our lives, and right now I may still feel some of it from how our lives were dramatically changed in 2010 when my mom walked out the door and left, then by being crushed and destroyed inside by her yet another time. But I do not constantly dwell on these things, I do not allow myself to be consumed in it, I take my periods of grieving and mourning and then I am back to my regular self because if I don’t then I can’t be who I need to be for God.

And do I wish things were different? Sometimes I do, but then I have to stop myself from thinking that way, because I am a strong believer that God does everything for a reason and a purpose, or I should say that everything happens for that reason and that purpose, because everything that we might have going on in our life isn’t caused by God, however it can still very well be his will and plan for us and he allows us to suffer some pain because he knows he is able to bring good out of the most unthinkable places.

I am glad that I am where I am, I am thankful to know the people that I now know because of where God has brought me from, I know that if I had not gone through what I did then I would not be where I am and I would not get to have the joy of knowing such amazing new people in my life that have made a big impact on my heart, so continue strongly and courageously in Christ my fellow brethren, do not be afraid.

Until next time…

SHALOM –