Nathan Tune

This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalms 118:24 (KJV)

Conflicted – The Holidays

Nov
22

Blessings and SHALOM in Jesus alone, today I would like to write about some things that have been on my mind for the past few months now, I just needed to find a way to express myself fully. So without further ado…


The Holidays have been and are always a bit of a conflicting and complicated time for me personally, due to my family’s situation with things in the past with my mom and what not: I am constantly torn up inside about it. It eats away at me more than I let on and some days are harder than others. I fight away the anger each day, fighting to stay sane because sometimes the situation gets me incredibly upset. I’m sure there are some who might be able to relate. But with Gods help I am able to move past it and I choose every day to be BETTER and NOT bitter. And some days it is just really hard. But I move past that, I keep pushing forward.

Because greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world. I have had many friends tell me after really getting to know me, that they can’t believe I am as nice and caring of a person as I am considering all I’ve been through in my short life, they tell me they’ve known people that have gone off the deep end. People that go out and do drugs and get drunk and steal and get arrested and just hate the world. So it’s always amazing to them that I’m the way I am, but I tell them. I battle with the anger sometimes, I’m sure we all do. But I choose to be good, I choose to do good, but most importantly…

Choose To SEE Good:

I choose to SEE good, in this world. Even though it feels like it’s not there. Because life can be so dark and so cold and so painful and full of such despair and hate and anger and bitterness and death and sadness and heartache and tears and destitution and desolation. But I choose to look beyond what I see and I choose to see the good first. I choose it so much so that it happens for me automatically, I am almost to the point where I don’t even have to try anymore. I just look at something and see the good in it. Even if it’s just a speck. But it wasn’t always that easy. And there isn’t always good. I have been hurt and abandoned and ridiculed and mocked and hated by “friends” “family” for what I believe, for what I have stood for. Because I believe in a just and holy God. I’ve been harshly ridiculed, things I don’t even talk about.

All because I said I believed in God’s truth. Things that would make some people want to just lock themselves away and never talk to anyone ever again. But I overcome those things, I refuse to live that way. I refuse to live in pain, I refuse to live in darkness and despair. I refuse to live in fear, I refuse to live hidden from the world because I am called to be a light and what good is a light hidden under a bush? What good is a light that has been blown out by the evilness of this world from the devil himself? What good can that light do?

I could very easily never talk to anyone ever again, I could very easily choose to see only pain and hate and dark, cold, bitter despair in this world. I could choose to believe that there are only fake backstabbing lying scumbags in this world. I could choose to believe that. But what kind of a Christian would that make me? The whole purpose of my faith is to be like Christ? Where would we be if Christ chose to believe like that? If he chose to believe that none of us were capable of change and we should all just die?

We would all be dead, in hell. Many of us might not ever have even existed. But no, Jesus chose to look beyond that and in spite of our wickedness, in spite of our sins in spite of our iniquities he chose love. He chose the greatest form of love there can ever be, he chose to die for us so that we might be saved from hell. Imagine if he’d stayed hidden from the world, imagine if he chose to let darkness win. Imagine. I don’t want to imagine. Do you? No, it’s too easy to live that way. I refuse to, I have told myself this every since I was very young and I will forever stick to this belief.  People will fail you, they will. They will hurt you, they will. That’s life. They will ridicule you, they will mock you and they will try and destroy you.

There will always be that type of evil in this world. But in locking ourselves away, we let that evil win. It doesn’t matter what other people do, what truly matters is what WE do as true servants of Christ.

There may be heartache and pain and anger and sickness and sadness and death and tears and hunger and poverty and war and hatred and bitterness and despair. That is this life in which we live. But I believe that good will always conquer evil. Because In life there is also, love, joy and laughter and peace and friends and family and kindness and caring and sharing and giving and helping others. There are so many great people, beautiful wonderful people in this world that have beautiful wonderful souls and they are loved by God they are special to God so special that he gave his son to die for them on the cross. For all of us.

So how can we not have love for people? How can we not have compassion and how can we not care? Hundreds of thousands of people die every day and only God knows where their soul stands, how can that not bother us? How could that not make us want to be as bright a light as we can. How on earth can that not make us want to go out into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature? Because that’s exactly what Jesus commanded of us, many times throughout the scripture he tells us to be a light that we are a light and that we are to be his workmanship. Witnessing and most importantly, being a witness for him.

And that is what I will always do, I’m a people person. I have always had such a deep compassion for people, and a love for life. It’s a Christ like compassion I suppose. Because life is beautiful. How could it not be?

 

This is the day which the lord hath made, we will rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalms 118:24 KJV

 

We rejoice because God made it and God is in it and therefore it is good. I refuse to believe there is ever bad days. Only bad things that can happen in those days.

Because a day that God allows us to wake up and have breath is a great day indeed.

For life is beautiful.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

SHALOM –

The Brokenness…

Mar
26

If you were to ask me to write a post about being broken, broken things and ‘brokenness’ I would have to accept your proposal and I would also have to write the post in a story type fashion. You see, sometimes, the only way for me to get my point across crisp and clear is with a story.

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So let me begin with a story of ‘Brokenness’ on this day.

The silence in the room was deafening as it echoed throughout the night. The boy lie awake, tormented by his emotions, restless and weary of fighting them hours on end. Trying his best not to give in. He stares up at the blank ceiling. There in that white void in the late hour of the night he finds solitude, comfort and assurance. But not peace. He stares for hours at this ceiling, dwelling on things of the past, dreaming, praying, hoping, wishing. Crying. Crying out, crying for and crying about, the things of the past. Can he find comfort in his tears? Is there rest for the weary? Is there solitude and peace for those who weep and mourn in the late hour of the lonely night? Or is there just pain and despair? Hurt and grief? To what end? How can this be? The boy cries harder with his face buried in his pillow like a weak and feeble infant with no shame. Why would God permit such heartache to pierce the soul of such a young child, a servant of Christ? A doer of good. How could it be? Does the good Lord not hear the cries that is bellowed throughout the night by this young boy? Does he have no care at all for what happens to this child? Does it not concern God one bit? Why, oh why must the good suffer so, while the evil receive so much goodness with so little turmoil or hardships? This is the question the heartbroken boy cries out into the dark and silent lonely night.

Are there answers for this young soul? Is there hope? Or is there only pain and heartache? Alone and tired and broken and scared and so afraid of losing all he has left, for he’s already lost so much. Friends, loved ones, beloved pets. How can such a tormented person go on in this life? Expected to always be smiling, always be shining, always a comfort to those in need in the late hour of their lonely grief. To what end is this tragic pain? To what end? Can others simply not understand? Or can they understand and just not care? Is it selfishness for this child to seek solitude and comfort and confine in others? Is it selfish to want one lonely night to himself to grieve, to weep, to mourn and cry out for his Father’s help?

So many have asked of this boy, “can you talk?” and no matter the late hour, he responds. “Yes.” No matter the events that are happening in his own life, he sets them aside and finds temporary comfort in paying attention to the heartache and brokenness of those around him. But, again I must ask. To what end? How can one go on? How can one be expected to smile through the tears? How can one be expected to forget, expected to move on so quickly from such turmoil, such torment. How can that be, how can it be? Now, let us discuss this child’s Family.

There is a Family:

A Mother, a Father, a Daughter a Son. And the Daughter’s two children as well. And in these days, what are families most prone to? What is most likely to happen to families? From a biblical perspective, heartache, pain, turmoil and yes… Brokenness, the enemy works it all out  so well. That it seems as if Mother is against Daughter and Daughter is against Mother. Father against Son, and Son is against Father, and on and on and on when will the brokenness be gone? There is so much division, separation and hurt. The boy often finds himself crying himself to sleep at night. Crying out, asking, why wondering If,  if his family is so divided, if there is so much strife and so much anger and heartache. How can his family ever make it to heaven together? How?

With the thoughts of Daughter against Mother and the thoughts of Mother against daughter, constant arguing and never ending fighting and inevitable division, how can there ever be a path to heaven for his family or anyone? How? Why must it be him? Why must this hurt and tragedy happen to him and to his family? Sickness, confusion, strife and pain. Why must this happen? Does God not hear the cries of the young boy in the middle of the  lonely night? Does he simply not care? Why must the world be so broken? When the boy is finally able to sleep, he wakes with one thought and one question on his mind.

I wake up this morning to families torn apart and I wish I could fix it, give them a brand new start. But I can’t. I know you’re hurting and I know you’re in pain. I know how you feel. But don’t give up yet, just believe. You are stronger than you think. You’ve been through the trials and you’ve been through the pain. You have been hurt so severe. But don’t give up, you’ve made it through and yes, you are stronger than you think. And if you’ve made it through this, just think what you can do. You could change the whole world and help others too. Because you are stronger than you think.

In Conclusion:

So there you have it, my short story for “Brokenness” broken things. There will always be brokenness in one’s life and there will always be heartache and turmoil. There will always be hurting children and there will always be families torn apart. Not because of anything that God has done, but because of what man has done. The world is corrupt and the enemy is on the warpath. And more and more each day we are giving in to his ways and that just makes the world that much darker. While the boy in my story may face some hardships from time to time and while he may grieve greatly in the late hour of the lonely night. He never once let himself become consumed by darkness, and that is where we must tread ever so carefully. It is alright to grieve, it’s perfectly normally to cry and to feel sad from time to time, it is even normal to be completely overwhelmed by heartache, we are only human. But we can’t let that determine us as a person. We must keep strong and we must move on.

God is our fortress, he is our refuge and he is our mighty tower. While it may not seem like he cares for all those little children that weep and mourn in the lonely night. He does and he does listen to them, he is listening to them and he will answer them. Which is why I do my part in praying every night for every child all over the world. The abandoned child, the broken child. The child that is neglected and abused, they could use all the prayers they could get and if we can do more, then we should do that too. Until next time my friends, remember that we cannot choose the events that happen to us but we CAN choose how we respond to them. Just remember God is the great Physician and he can mend all broken things. It won’t be easy, it will take time. But nothing is impossible with God, some things may not be mended until that day in heaven when he wipes the tears from our eyes but he can and he will.

SHALOM –

Dare Be a Disciple?

May
20

Greetings, as a servant of the Lord Jesus Christ, I’ve noticed that it cost me my family, friends, and much more.  When you become a true disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ, you will start to notice division among your family. Well, they will pretty much isolate themselves from you who is in Christ. It can feel like a lonely walk in your walk with God, but we must always remember that the Lord is with us.

11272287_10204027599719144_1004291362_nJohn 16:32 says 32 Behold, the hour cometh, yea, is now come, that ye shall be scattered, every man to his own, and shall leave me alone: and yet I am not alone, because the Father is with me. So, what exactly do I mean that it can be a lonely walk when your walking with God? Well, it is when members of your own household like your mother, earthly father, cousins, aunts, uncles hate you because you decided to follow Jesus. I have experienced isolation from my own family that I used to be close with. It has been hard for me because I’ve always been a family type of person, always being in fellowship with my family. And though it may be hard for me, it is so worth it. The best decision I ever made in my entire my life was starting a true relationship with Jesus Christ.

Jesus said in Matthew 10:34-39

34 Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.

35 For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.

36 And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household.

37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.

38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me.

39 He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.

When you carry your cross it signifies admitting His right over your life. As you give up your life to Jesus, you will find true life in return. As a true follower of the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth, one should not love their family more than the Lord. Furthermore, another example of how a lonely walk can be as a Christian is when you can’t find anyone to fellowship with who has the same interests as you do when you are in Christ. Or some people might see you as a lunatic or too religious. I know I am not the only one who desires to fellowship with those who are on fire for God. As born-again in Jesus, you see the world in a different perspective. For example, When you’re new in Christ, you dislike the wicked things this world has to offer. As your led by the Holy Spirit, you start to feel as a foreigner in a strange land because you know your citizenship is in heaven! Our true home is where our Abba Father lives!

So when your family stops talking to you, and ignores you as if you didn’t exist anymore just remember what Jesus said in John 15:18-19 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. I rather choose Jesus over my family a million times because He is worth it! At the end, we will be rewarded for enduring until the end! So continue to walk strong in the Lord! I hope this blog post blessed you in some way in reminding you that you’re not alone.

For the Son of man shall come in the glory of his Father with his angels; and then he shall reward every man according to his works. –  Matthew 16:27

Sister in Christ –

Emily Roll

 

 

The Little Things…

Apr
16

Hello again and welcome back to my online oasis, isn’t it a lovely day for another inspiration blog post my friends, foes, brothers, sisters?

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Well, let’s begin then, shall we? It’s the little things that count, or so it is often said, is it not? When you take the time to think about it, the littlest moments in life really are the ones that count the most, being that we are all most prone to taking deep consideration at a baby’s first word, which to a lot of people might mean nothing and really compared to other events in a child’s life that occur, a first word really isn’t one of the biggest accomplishments.

Yet we as humans tend to take such note of the littlest of things, such as burping a baby even, isn’t that funny? It’s true though, we humans tend to overreact at the smallest things, so I would say that it truly is the littlest things that count the most, which can some times be good and other times be rather bad.

Responsibility:

Biblically however, taking note of the smaller things really make all the difference, because we can learn from scripture that if God can trust us in the little things, that is when we will be blessed with much greater things. (By the way I really hate using the word ‘things’ but I don’t know what else to say.)

  • He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much. – Luke 16:10 K.J.V.

I know that I might have mentioned this many times before, but this verse is one that my grandma has quoted to me all throughout my life, because when we didn’t have much sometimes I could get a bit ungrateful, which can happen to a lot of us especially when living in such a society that demands MORE and MORE, right?

But I was taught to cherish what it is that I have, and I am very easily able to be content wherever I am, I know that I may not have much at times, however, at the same time I am grateful that God has given me and my family ENOUGH, and for some people enough may not be all that they THINK they need, but for me it is.

Of course I want things from time to time, but I know that my Lord and Savior KNOWS that my wants and NEEDS are few and far in between.

Little Encounters:

Do you ever have those little encounters while out at public when at the doctors or buying groceries at the register, when someone all of a sudden walks up to you saying something funny or something you agree with?  Then all of a sudden you are in a  full on conversation  with this person that you haven’t ever met in your life.

I have, it’s funny how many little events I can recall, I have even put some of them on my blog before, because I can’t help but wonder about the little things when I’m riding around town while we are doing our shopping or going to church, or wherever we might be going.

I can’t help but wonder where the rest of those people we pass on our way might be going, what kind of events they might be going through in their life, it’s funny because many times when we pass someone on the highway I will look into their vehicle and If I sense for a little bit that something is wrong in that persons life, I begin feeling a strong urge to pray for them, and I do.

Is that strange?

In Conclusion:

What it all boils down to is to not take life for granted, think of your little dog, think of what excites him, it’s the smallest gifts of life isn’t it? Like getting to go out for a walk, getting fed by you, getting that pat on the head issuing him a ‘good boy’ all of that may seem small but to him, that is his whole life, dogs somehow realize that they aren’t going to be on this earth for a very long time.

So they somehow make a great effort in taking note and enjoying the little things that life has to offer, let’s be like the dogs, let’s be a little more grateful for the smallest of things in life, because what we may see as ‘little’ or ‘worthless’ someone else might see as beautiful and amazing, because they might not have been blessed with all that we have been blessed with, and we must never forget that we are not the only people on this earth.

 We must never forget, the little things. 

Until next time my long far away friends, take care, sleep with your gun held tight and don’t let the government bite.

SHALOM –

Hello…

Mar
27

Hi there, how are you? I hope that you’re doing well today, I just want to take a moment to check up on you that’s all.

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Are you doing well? Has anything interesting happened in your life recently? How about your week, how has that been going for you? I hope it’s been going great because nothing else would be greater than knowing that you are working towards a brighter tomorrow.

Unfortunately though, sometimes we lose sight of tomorrow, we are quickly losing a brighter future all together, hello, I’m Nathan Tune and what I really would like to talk to you about today is a bit more than you might of bargained for when you first decided to click the link in your newsfeed, or wherever it is that you were directed to me from.

What do you think about Family? Do you have a family, whether it’s of your own or it’s one you are a part of I am looking to see if you actually care about your family, if your family has the values that most all families do, like teaching one not to lie or steal or having good manners, love, faith and integrity.

How about something else, are you a Christian by any chance, do you happen to support some things that you might not really feel that comfortable with but you do so anyways just to make yourself feel popular?

Oh I’m Sorry:

Am I judging you? I don’t think I am, I’m just asking a simple question that’s all I’m doing because It’s not like you’re asking yourself that question now is it? Are you? Are you really even considering what it is that you are doing, or are you doing these things just to continue on in your cozy lifestyle?

No my intension aren’t to attack or to judge, but just to make you think, that’s all, that’s all my intentions are because it seems to me that too many people these days say one thing and then apparently  do another thing totally opposite to what they say and I am trying to figure out exactly why that is?

Can I even do that though? Perhaps I can, I guess I will have to see. A lot of people like to say that they are the ‘family’ type – they like to go to Church every Sunday without fail, they believe in the core values and principals of the bible and hold them dear to their hearts, but when it comes to big public actions, they show differently in those.

And then you know what happens? People all of a sudden begin to lose hope in humanity because it seems to them that all that anyone is trying to do is just get more popular by doing and saying anything possible that they can to keep from losing everyone they ‘love’.

One Question:

Would you even consider lying to someone if you knew they had cancer and you knew you had the cure to that cancer, or what about this.

(Yeah I said one question but oh well.)

Would you even consider letting someone that you ‘love’ walk out in front of a bus without trying to stop them? So why would you lie about so many things to them in order to not hurt their feelings?

I don’t know why so many people do the things they do but it really gets to me and I hope that more and more often people will just boldly and freely speak their minds without fear of hurting other’s feelings. I mean I understand the importance when it comes to other’s feelings, but at the same time isn’t honesty something important too?

Hmm…

Conclusion:

Don’t eat too much sugar or you’ll get fat, drink a lot of pickle juice if you don’t want to get fat, and if you don’t wanna do a single one of those then well…

I guess you can just eat a whole lot of pizza and french fries until you can’t hold anymore. Ok I’m kidding that’s not really the real conclusion of this blog post, I was just having a little fun, now I’m done; in conclusion – we really have to start being more open and honest with each other.

Even if it means a little bit of backlash every  now and then, It is very important that we start trying to have dialogue with each other instead of just trying to blame everyone and everything.

One last thing webianites, eat lots of cookies and ice cream it makes for a really great day, also this is this weeks final blog post which I would like to briefly discuss – from now on until I can’t possibly do it anymore.

I am going to be posting a blog post a day every day for 5 days a week taking Saturday (Shabbat) and Sunday off to plan the next weeks posts, be in continual prayer for me and wish me much luck.

Until next time…

SHALOM –

Are You Wealthy?

Mar
18

Before you answer that question, let me tell you a story.

GoldThere was a man, Frank, he worked all his life for everything he had yet he barely had nothing by the end of his life.

Everything he had worked for was taken away from him by his children, his wife had passed away three years prior to his utterly disturbing diagnosis of Pancreatic cancer.

What little he had left he gave away, he donated millions to charity and then had it put in his will that everything else go to the make a wish foundation.

His dear Anna would have wanted it that way.

Now, as he sits on an old wooden park bench all alone with a few pieces of stale bread he had gotten from his favorite bakery on fifth street near his wife’s favorite beauty parlor, he’d throw the pieces one by one, watching the birds peck away.

And all of a sudden this young man sits down next to him.
The old man quite startled by the company jumps back a bit, the younger man asks if he’s alright to which Frank replies “yes”
As he settles back down on the old wooden bench he begins to question the younger man sitting next to him.

 

“I see you have an engagement ring poking out of your coat pocket, who’s the lucky lady?”

Taken by surprise the younger man replied, “excuse me? I don’t even know your name?”

“Oh, I’m sorry, Frank. My names Frank, and you are?”

“I’m John, how’d you know abou-”

“Well you are a young man, and based on the sneakers you’re wearing with such a fine suit as that, being that your neck tie is slightly loosened, the richness of your dark hair, the texture of your skin and flawless wrinkle free face, I’d say you are about 23 years old, due to the value of the watch you’re wearing you are a rich man as well, being that you are only 23 years old wearing sneakers with such a high quality suit Id say that the money you have isn’t yours though, not entirely, you clearly didn’t get it by chance, you earned it from working on your fathers ranch, I can see that by the toned out body you have and the calluses on your hands, also the ring bulging from your coat pocket appears to be an 18 karat and if I’m not mistaken that haircut you have came from Shirley’s Beautician and Spa which would have cost you about $125.99 with a $15 tip, but of course you’re also a giver so I’m sure you donated at least $25 more to her charity fund that helps disabled veterans. The picture of you and a young girl is slightly hanging out of your coat pocket, I would assume she was your sister, but by the way you’re holding her and from how she looks at you I have to say she’s your girlfriend, based on the initials on the picture I presume her name is Louise. Anything else, John?”

“Uh… No, not at all sir…”

“Good.”

“Are you from around here Frank? I haven’t seen you before.”

“I mostly keep to myself, but you see, I’m dying John.”

“Dying? Of what?”

“Pancreatic Cancer.. I don’t have long, I want to spend the rest of my days out here, it’s where I find peace and comfort”

“I know what you mean, when I was little my dad would bring me here all the time.”

“I know, your dad didn’t always have much time for fun did he John?”

“No, you’re right, he didn’t. How did you know?”

“Well he’s a rancher, I assume he first struck it rich with oil, then he purchased cattle to further sustain himself, the cattle that when you were old enough helped him tend to. As a young boy he was always working, he only had Saturday’s off which is when he brought you here, to this park. Where you’d feed the birds on this bench, and talk about life.”

“Yeah, that’s exactly right, how do you know so much anyways Frank?”

“I’m old, John. That’s a benefit of being old, wisdom. I brought my kids here when they were younger too, they could never appreciate it though. Always wanted to go and play at the arcades with their friends.”

“Sorry to hear that sir.”

 

The old man sighed deeply as he looked out at the birds pecking away at the bread, as he goes to toss the last piece to them, something doesn’t seem right.

A sharp pain shot through his chest, up his neck and throughout his body, he stiffens all over. He tries to gasp for air but fails.

The young man next to him, surprised in a panic calls 911.

But he was too late. The old man died with that last piece of bread barely hanging out of his hand.

When the young man returned home he told his fiancé, Louise all about his experience at the park, she thought he was insane, but when he proposed to her later that night she without hesitation accepted with glee.

The story is fictional, but the moral point I hope to make, is very real.

Sometimes in life, we live all our life looking for a meaning, a purpose and a value greater than we can imagine. And while there is no doubt that there isn’t something bigger out there, sometimes, some of us never find it, because we are too caught up in the riches of the world, instead of enjoying the riches of life.

The riches of life are far greater than any riches the world could ever offer.

These riches are love, faith, family, friends, laughter, joy, peace, kindness and togetherness.

One might have all the riches of the world… But if they lack just one of the riches of life. Then sadly, without even knowing so, they are one of the poorest alive.

So I leave you with the same question I had in the beginning.
Are you wealthy? And if so, how wealthy are you?

SHALOM –

CHRIST-MAS!

Dec
25

MERRY CHRIST-MAS my dearly beloved brothers and sisters in Christ!

short-merry-christmas-wallpapersI hope you are all having a lovely holiday today, I am just simply trying to enjoy it as best I can and look back on times gone by, it is quite amazing how much time can change things isn’t it?

Each time I start to write one of these blog posts I try to shoot for about 500 words or more because I just feel that is what they should be, not too long, not too short but something good and soul providing, encouraging, uplifting, inspiring (I hope) and good food for your spirit!

Don’t forget what the season is truly about, it’s about these simple attributes below:

  • Christ
  • Giving
  • Love
  • Peace
  • Joy
  • Happy-ness
  • Kindness
  • Caring
  • Sharing
  • Togetherness

If we ever forget that we will lose all sight of the holiday’s, and I’m afraid there are too many people that have already forgotten, as I said in my last actual radio show, CHRIST-MAS isn’t really ALL about gifts, fancy dishes, a lot of food, super savings at the grocery store, egg nog, it’s not about how much ‘stuff’ you get at all. CHRIST-MAS first and foremost has always been about CHRIST.

Now if you’ve been paying attention you’ll notice that I have been spelling Christmas like the following – “CHRIST-MAS” why is that? Simply because if you look at that last word “MAS” in Spanish, it is then translated to “MORE” am I right? I don’t know much Spanish, but I know that  much to tell you, yes I am right! So looking at it with that mindset, Christmas is really one or as matter of fact THE biggest season of the year and it is possibly the one day out of the entire year that CHRIST is recognized MAS than he is any other day of the year!

When CHRIST-MAS is celebrated in that context.

Which I believe for many, many, many many, many years now it always has been, people have always celebrated CHRIST-MAS to honor and glorify – CHRIST!

Now don’t get me wrong, I do not doubt for one minute that there aren’t people who are caught up in all the “stuff” people that ‘worship’ Santa, the elves, the tree, blah blah blah.

I’m pretty sure there are some and we know for a fact that more and more each year our beloved Christmas becomes this commercialization about business making more and more money while people kill each other to save less, it is increasing at a rapid speed, people going crazy about the ‘stuff’ rather than the true meaning.

And we cannot deny that the majority of all the world recognizes Christmas as CHRIST’S birthday and he IS glorified by, he IS, it’s just a ‘fact’ even sinners have to recognize him that day because when Christmas is celebrated the way it always has been, and the one that will  really comes out being glorified is GOD and while I believe the spirit of Christ-mas lives inside each and every single one of us all throughout the year, because I believe it is just the TRUE love of Christ.

It just for some reason takes the actual season of CHRIST-MAS to activate it, then it begins to work outside of us, so what do you say my friends? Are you going to embrace  CHRISTMAS spirit this season? And if you do, why not riding it all throughout  the New Year as well?

And possibly throughout the rest of your life? (Just a wild thought)

I know many have their criticism of Christmas but I will continue to celebrate it, as my favorite parts are the lights and Christ said he is the LIGHT of the world, so why let your house be all dark, gloomy and Scrooge-y this Christmas?

Just to let you all know, again, after today I will be taking a 5 day break from the social world and my phone/internet/laptop and most all electronic devices other than TV to watch some shows and movies with my family.

Celebrate Christ more this Christ-mas!

God bless you all!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

SHALOM –

A Christmas Eve Catastrophe

Dec
24

And so it began nearly two years ago, the beginning of another Christmas Eve

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I’m pretty sure I started that morning with some type of exercise, maybe even a walk as you know temperatures are fairly warm in East Texas even around this time of year,  when I got home there were cookies to be made, chicken salad to be prepared and pecan pies to be made as well!It all started like any other day, quiet, peaceful, calm and mystical as you could just feel the Christmas magic all around you in the air. The Christmas tree was glowing from it’s many strands of lights and beads that were carefully wrapped around it and presents were neatly stacked at the bottom, things were Christmas-y indeed.

I began making the pecan pies, I believe this was the first year I had ever attempted to make one on my own (and I’m not much of a baker to begin with) nevertheless I embarked on this mystical baking journey and set out to make two homemade pecan pies from our very own pecans right here on our own Texas abode!

IMG_2622However I’m pretty sure that they flopped the first time, but we intended on eating them anyways because we can never let anything go to waste (that is considering we have  done without things in the past) so we went on to place them aside to cool and supposedly “set up” (which they would have done, I just hadn’t baked them properly).

Time For A Present!

Usually we wait until we get back from looking at Christmas lights to do this but somehow this time was different and it was decided that we could open “one” present on Christmas Eve that is usual tradition in our home and I’m sure many other homes around the world as well, now, this was the night that I happened to obtained my very first condenser microphone ever for my radio show!

I surely have put it to good use over the past two years, I think, and I believe that I have gotten more used to it and better even, having bought two real XLR cable condenser microphones this year I mainly use them now, but I still from time to time use my very first USB as it’s just easier to set up for short projects and it can compete pretty well with my new professional equipment.

And of course it will always be my first microphone that I will always cherish and keep with me, who knows, maybe one day It’ll mean something to someone else besides me you think? You never can know I suppose…

Well Enough of my rambling, onto the rest of our evening.

The Return Home:

After gazing at Christmas lights for the past couple of hours (which happens to be a family tradition of ours) we then decided to make our journey home, what we didn’t know is the surprise that would be awaiting us when we got there.

It just so happens my friends that I forgot to mention that not too long before the holidays my grandparents had picked up this rescue dog on their way back from a funeral one day in North of Arkansas I believe, a black German Shepherd (at the time named Titan but we renamed him Samson) he had been mistreated by some old lady that kept him in a cage and starved him when he was a puppy.

Something we had forgotten that you’ll understand here in just a moment, a police officer had took him in and posted an ad that he needed to get him to a good family and sure enough my grandparents just all of a sudden decided to go pick him up that day.

It was quite frustrating for me too because I had worked all day on cleaning the house and all of a sudden they barge through the door and I get pounced on by a dog licking my face like a wild maniac, oh well, anyways…

Onto Christmas Eve…

It just so happens that we had put him in a cage not thinking much of it, it was a very big cage and we knew we would be home soon enough, we really didn’t think it could be that bad but sure enough when we returned home, well…

Let’s just say it wasn’t too pretty, he ripped out of that sucker…

(Photo Below)

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We had gotten my grandpa donuts for Christmas that year and that is what he opened on Christmas eve, the dog just so happened to get into some of them, he also opened a few other presents as well that we had wrapped for him, (naughty little booger) he also managed to get into the mini beef franks we had planned for pigs in a blanket on Christmas day or in this case it would of been (Cows in a blanket) and he of course got into those beautiful pecan pies I had made.

But get this, he didn’t just eat one whole pie, he had to eat half of each one! We were all very frustrated indeed, but we knew it probably wasn’t such a good idea to put him in a cage given his past experiences, we just didn’t want him getting into the food (which he happened to do anyways)

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Needless to say that was the last day he spent in the house, he made a pretty good house dog for awhile and even is house trained, he would go to the door when he needed to go out and I don’t believe he ever gave us any trouble there unless of course we didn’t pay attention to his plea to go out, he’s got short hair so his shedding wasn’t too bad but it was still a bit of a task to maintain.

However after we came home to that “Christmas Eve Catastrophe” we decided it was best he stay out side from then on, who could blame us, and who could really blame the dog? It was best for everyone I believe and he still loves us just as much as he did before.

With that said, I hope you all have  a very Merry Christmas eve and an even better Christmas day! My family went out Christmas light looking early this year, yesterday so I suppose we will be staying in tonight enjoying the magic that is Christmas Eve.

Until next time…

SHALOM –

Overcoming Heartache…

Nov
10

Good tidings of thanksgiving and love to you all my beloved brethren in Christ and SHALOM! Today I would like to take a short moment of your time to discuss some issues that have really been on my heart lately, as you know I have been dealing with the sorrow that is the fact of my mom taking back the homeless man yet again. And that is the whole reason I have decided to title this post exactly what it is:

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Because whether anyone chooses to believe it or not, YES, my heart has been incredibly ached by this. I get angry, upset and highly frustrated; over and over again in my mind I have thought to myself “Why God, why have you allowed such things to take place?” Why is it that me and my family go to to extroadinary measures giving up so many things (yet again) to help my mother just so she could take this crook back into her life? Yeah I said it, CROOK. It upsets me to the very core because I was SO proud of the way my mom was moving in her life, how she was making something of herself, finally going after her dreams and MAKING them happen. It upsets me to think of the sweat, blood and tears my Grandparents has put into her all their life just so she could brutally harm us all yet again. I try not to sound mean or bitter or ugly, but the only way I can describe the feeling I’ve had for so long is DISGUST.

For months I have been disgusted at the fact that this could ever happen, however I shouldn’t be so surprised, I felt it coming months before it did happen. Just as I had before, I prayed, fasted. It seems this is just something that was bound to happen regardless of what I did, what I just can’t understand is: why would God warn us of things that we ultimately have no control over? Friends have talked with me about this and do their best to explain. But the fact of the matter is, it’s still bewildering me, nevertheless all we can do is trust God, right? Trust him in the good times and the bad times, because he can make good come out of ALL situations. If we never learn to endure our trials gracefully, faithfully, and thankfully, we will never come out cheerfully. We will come out bitter, angry, cold and heartless. But let us conquer evil by taking the single first action to do so.

Let us choose to keep persevering, keep moving on; even when you think you can’t take another step, do it anyways. Because the more we move on in doing what is RIGHT the more God will bless us for it. I have been so confused and so shaken up, many do not even understand the heartache I still feel, there are nights it hits me hard and I don’t know if it will ever go away. I am strong enough to move past it, but I still feel, I still have certain days where it really gets to me and I believe we are allowed to have those days. Especially when someone has caused you pain, not once, not twice, not three times or even four but FIVE times. FIVE times you have been harmed by this person, FIVE times you gave this person you love and forgiveness without hesitation, FIVE times you allowed someone who had stabbed you in the heart to come back in and trusted them. And then FIVE times they abuse you again. I say FIVE times is where I draw the line…

Now this is something I struggled with for quite sometime, but I have now realized that I must. I have forgiven my mother yet again of what she’s done. But as my dearly beloved Australian Brother In Christ, Thomas puts it:

“Forgiveness doesn’t mean, permittance, people don’t deserve the chance to hurt people again. It doesn’t mean you don’t forgive, but you don’t forgive and forget. You forgive and learn from your mistakes.” – Thomas

I fully agree with that, you can love someone, you can completely FORGIVE them, but you do NOT have to allow them back into your life, and that is what I have chosen to do. I can’t trust my mother again and I cannot afford to emotionally, I have health issues, nerve problems and heart problems. High blood pressure and sleep problems. I cannot allow another traumatic experience like this to cause my health anymore damage than it already has. I just can’t, and that ends up hurting me too, but I’ve come to the conclusion that; It is a whole lot less hurt to just keep my distance. Yes, when I see her in the grocery store with her “man” I cannot look at it, it upsets me with hurt too much, so yes. I turn away and HAVE to leave the store. I am not at fault for that and no one will ever make me believe I am, my chest starts hurting, my heart begins to beat real fast to where I can feel it pounding against my chest. I become overwhelmed with emotion, I have an oversensitive nervous system and it’s hard to maintain in horrific, bad, scary or even good events. So I avoid the possibility of seeing them as much as I can.

Living in the same area doesn’t help but I manage. The way I look at it is, I have done nothing wrong, I am a victim, but I will NOT play victim. Because through scripture I am VICTOR. I will continue to do what is right, I will march on in the Lords army with my battle scars, and I will choose to do GOOD, because I REFUSE to be trampled on. I REFUSE to let myself quit. I will not live like I don’t care because I DO care, and while I don’t hope and pray for bad incidents to take place in my life. I don’t fear them, because each strike I take from the enemy just makes me stronger in Christ. I won’t be shaken, I won’t be broken, I won’t be moved. I will continuously stand strong in the Lord. Those of you that read my posts, my statuses and follow me online through twitter, facebook, youtube and my radio show. I will always remain honest and true with all of you, I won’t hold back my mistakes or my victories. I am human, but I do my best to be my best and if I falter I’ll admit it.

To my mom:

“If you’re reading this. Here are some things I would just like to thank you of. Thank you for empowering me, thank you for strengthening me, thank you for igniting an even deeper passion within me, because all the choices you’ve made that has caused me deep, deep DEEP harm. Has birthed something great within me, because I allow BEAUTY to come out of my heartache, I choose to OVERCOME my heartache. While you choose to live in the past as you continuously keep making the same mistakes over and over again, I choose to move on and take a brighter path. With a brighter future and a brighter life ahead. I pray that someday you come to your senses and realize the mistake you have made yet again, you can disagree now it doesn’t make me no difference I still mean what I say and I’ll still say what I mean.

I am not at the alter begging God for your return this time, I honestly cannot allow you back into my life after this, but I do say this. I love you, I always have, I always will. That won’t ever change. I have loved you when I was four year old little boy locked in a basement, starving, locked in a room to stay in bed all day. I loved you when you were sick and ill and couldn’t get out of bed. I loved you when every singing I went to I would plead out to the church singing groups to please pray for your recovery in good health. I loved you when you left with this man the first time, I loved you when you chose to take him back a second time and I now love you when you have taken him a third time. The fact of the matter is all my life I have loved you, all my life I’ve just wanted you to be a real mom, where you loved your mom and we all loved each a other, a great big happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, a barney family. But life isn’t an episode of barney, but that doesn’t change the fact that all my life I have spent praying and pleading out God protect you, God bring you to your senses, God bring you back to me, all my life, God restore your health, God make you new. All my life crying out to God for you. It doesn’t ever change that fact and it never will. But now we can never be in contact ever again. I just can’t. But I will see God prevail yet again, wait and see, your eyes will be opened soon. My hope rests in the one true God, Yeshua HaMashiach, and he’s never failed me.

You keep waiting, you hear? God still hears me, I know. He will answer too, in time. His time, his sweet, sweet time.. ” – Nathan Tune

To all of you that took the time to read this, thank you, God bless you so much. Keep watching, great things are coming, keep believing, the best is yet to come. And always remember, just when you think it’s the end, think again. Because what we think is the end, is actually the BEGINNING of something NEW…

Until next time my beloved brothers and sisters…

SHALOM –

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